The storm is over….until next time

It’s over now, its over now, I feel like I can make it the storm is over now. Those are the words to a song sung by Kirk Franklin and God’s Property and they are so applicable right now. Tatiana has been very ill this past week, she was diagnosed with RSV and pneumonia and subsequently had to be hospitalized for four whole days. It was really scary to see my baby weak, listless and unable to breathe without assistance of oxygen. I spent all day, everyday with her at the hospital….my days and nights were filled with doctors, nurses, respiratory therapists and medicine, period. I think I saw my home and children once during that time period until the best Christmas present ever was given to me, she was released on Christmas Day.

She is home and improving more and more every day, thank God! I appreciate all the medical personnel and the work they did to make my angel baby well, but I give all the praise and glory to the one true healer, God Himself.

Although my wish is belated, I trust that everyone had a beautiful Christmas and it was filled with family, friends and love.

Peace

Give it up

Have you ever been in a place in your life when everything is not working out as you had hoped, dreamed or planned? When you the person who has something to say about everything can’t say anything because it won’t change a thing? Well this is for you (and me, especially me) wanna know what it is? Come in a little closer and listen….

Be Still and Know that I am God…. Psalm 46:10

Love is…

What is love? There has been so much written about it through the ages, poems penned, songs sung but really what is love and how do we do it right? As a mother, I absolutely adore my children, I love them unconditionally, even when they are acting so very unloveable. I may not like them at that particular time but I truly love them always. I liken this kind of love to how God must love us, the His beautiful but wayward children. That agape love. Then you have the phillio kind of love, that brotherly, affectionate love we have for our friends, not quite agape nor is it eros but nonetheless still powerful. This love is what makes aquaintences turn into friends, it is that thing that makes us share our innermost secrets and laugh like children together.

But the love I am speaking of right now is the type we all secretly desire to have, but find so hard to attain that kind of love that makes everything else in your life pale in comparison if you have this love. I’m talking about eros, you know romantic love, the love that is all consuming, all encompassing, all wrapped up, tangled up and tied in a bow kind of love. The kind of love that makes you think about that person all day, everyday and wish you could be with them all the time. So if we all want to have this kind of love, why is it so hard to find? And if you do find it, why is it so difficult to keep? I’m just saying if I want it and you want it, we meet, sparks fly, we are compatible mentally, emotionally, and spiritually (I know I left out one but let’s just assume everything is flowing in that area too) then why oh why can’t we just be in love and stay that way???

I am no author or expert on the subject so I toss it out into the blogosphere seeking an answer from someone who is more knowledgeable than lil ole me. Help me out and drop me a line about this one.

She’s a big kid now

I am not even going to apologize for my absence yet again, I have done it so often that I cannot in good conscience say I am sorry. The truth is that I am often tired, busy, lazy, and frequently looking at blogs that have captured my attention far more than this one ever could. Then throw in the life stuff, the difficult things that make you wanna holler and scream out to God why, then you’ll understand why I don’t post as much as my heart wants to.

Tatiana is 16 months old now, she is pulling herself to a standing position every chance she gets and walking is now imminent. I am so excited to see all of her accomplishments, my heart fills with joy when I see how happy she is when she has mastered something new. She has more teeth than I can say (I don’t actually know because she won’t let anyone near the inside of her mouth without attempting to tear your fingers off) but I know she has at least 6-8.

She talks our heads off with her babbling, Dada and Mama roll off her tongue constantly and the rest of her language sounds remotely like something the Gremlins would say but cuter.

I promise not to make any promises when I will post again, so I guess what I am saying is see ya until next time…

HRC is an auntie…again

HRC, Empress Tatiana is an Auntie again, my daughter gave birth to a 6lb.- 6oz. gorgeous little boy named Tristan Cameron on September 17, 2009. Tatiana doesn’t understand her role as an auntie yet but her first nephew who is 3 adores her, so I have every assurance that this one will too.

I can’t explain it

I don’t know why, I can’t begin to explain it, I have no idea why just looking at this girl’s face brings me extreme joy! HRC has been doing real big girl stuff lately, such as feeding herself, We just got her a highchair and my oh my how she has kicked into high gear with her development. She is grabbing fists full of food and shoving it into her mouth. I realize that it may not show good table manners to eat in such a fashion, however when your little one is learning to feed herself on top of the possiblity that she might have had problems doing so, you rejoice at every little milestone. Don’t turn your back on her leaving a plate of food unattended, it just might not be there when you turn around.

Scentalicious

My new fav blog, It’s Almost Naptime is doing a favorite perfume post today and I wanna play too. So let’s talk about scents. For a gal who loves all things beauty and fashion, to look at me lately you couldn’t tell but I do love a good scent and while I have a few that I truly love, what I am wearing when I remember to put something delicious on is True Star Gold by Beyonce (Tommy Hilfiger)

Now I know what yall are thinking, Beyonce….over the top. but really it isn’t, it is fruity, but spicy and sexy, just like me or the me I strive to be LOL.

I one had a serious obsession with Amariage by Givenchy

but then I moved on to Truth by Calvin Klein

A young love was a rare gem called Nikki de St. Phalle…don’t you just love the name

And to round out the selections Paloma Picasso was an early adulthood favorite.

This ain’t about her….

Who do you run to when the one who you would run to is the one who is causing you pain??? Just a thought, I needed to express. Love is bliss, blind and also capable of delivering a blow so quick and hard that it knocks the wind out of you. I guess that is all can say without password protecting this post.

HRC is terrific, this is not about her in any shape, fashion or form! This post is totally about me!

The chompers are coming, the chompers are coming

HRC is finally getting teeth!!! I am crazy excited as you can tell. Who gets excited about their child’s ability to now bite anything and anyone who gets near her mouth? You just met her…ha ha. I’ve been waiting for HRC’s teeth to come in and they are fulfilling my wish. She has two little chiclets on the bottom and on the upper right side two more are trying to make their way up and out. If she will let me in her mouth without biting me, I’ll post a pic or two.

A year ago today…

A year ago today my life changed forever by a little angel that was sent to me from God. Her Royal Cuteness is one years old today! Where did the time go? I remember feeling an overwhelming sadness upon hearing the news that my precious baby was thought to have Down syndrome, I thought life was going to become something that I couldnt manage. But fast forward to now… that is so far from the truth, life is just as normal or abnormal if you really know me as it ever was. Tatiana is a diamond among jewels, yes she may not be the flawless diamond that everyone covets but she is still a diamond nonetheless, she sparkles, shines and radiates love and joy to all who gaze upon her.

Join me in celebrating the gift that God gave me and wishing my angel baby a very happy birthday!!!